Before I Let Go

Content Warning: This section of the guide discusses the novel’s treatment of child loss, stillbirth, pregnancy complications, depression, and suicidal ideation.

The Prologue takes place more than a decade in the past, as Josiah Wade, one of the protagonists, reflects on his relationship with his girlfriend, Yasmen. He remembers one day he was ill and Yasmen, despite her lack of cooking prowess, brought him soup. It was so inedible he had to laugh despite his discomfort, and he realized the depth of his love.

Now, he is nervously preparing to propose to her. Yasmen is energetically planning their future soul-food restaurant, Grits, but Josiah is distracted. Yasmen notices, reflecting that he is not known for his inattention to detail. Josiah kneels to propose, reflecting that “all of this is as out of character for [her] as a goat tap-dancing” (119). When Yasmen asks if the proposal is too soon because he has a semester of business school left, Josiah assures her this is what he wants. Overcome, Yasmen kneels too, accepting his proposal. They passionately kiss, and Josiah is certain their future is permanent.